Wednesday, October 16, 2013


I started a new job and I love it, but I'm not sure they love me back.  I've been needing a car, and my asthma has expanded to a further lung problem.

But things will get better.  They always do.

In the meantime, I'll be posting on my other blog.  Follow me there and read my nonsense about fashion, home decor, and my ambitions.  I have ambitions you know. =)

I've been entering the PCH sweepstakes but I think that they're discriminatory with the younger age groups.  Contests claim that once you're over the age of 18, you're free to join their lifetime earning sweepstakes.  This current one going on is for $7000 a week for LIFE.  What?!!  That's absurd, there's no way a group running sweepstakes will give a 20 year old 7,000 dollars a week for the rest of their lives.  I've seen the past winners, and it looks like they go after the old, so that they're not drained of money, and they're probably people with some deadly medical condition.  Haha.  Okay, that's all just a speculation on my behalf, but I've never seen a young person win.
I mean, older people have long over due bills to pay, like a thousand kids, and just wanna live the last years of their lives in peace... right?
I wish PCH knew that I can't afford my education, our family had hopes that my generation would make it to college, but it just didn't happen that way.  I'm not in ridiculous debt, but my family across the border is, so are my aunt's, uncles, and mother.  I need a car, and I need lung therapy so I don't end up with one lung on by the time I turn 30.  There's people that would benefit from that much money, I think even Donald Trump would benefit from that ridiculous amount of money.  (He could buy... something that he doesn't need but wants anyway... right?  I guess.)
What would I do with an allowance of $7000 a week for the rest of my life.  I'd pay off my debts, pay off my partner's debts, and everyone's debts that include family and close friends.  I'd feel motivated enough to go and get me a driver's license, and I'd buy me a car.  I'd give certain amounts to charities throughout America and maybe I'd buy a big house in the middle of nowhere USA to house victims of abuse because this issue is near and dear to my life.  I'd buy another house and start a foundation for the youth of America for those that didn't make it to the victims of abuse house so that they could get their shit together.  I'd put a lot of kids through college, because how can we improve the stats in our nation if our youth is finding all the wrong paths and no one is telling them that they're going the wrong way.  I'd fund education in my area because it's so desperately needed, and every year, I'd buy a prom dress for girls throughout Orange County because that's something I never got.  I'd make scholarships, and create jobs for students to get experience in the normal world so that they could learn to do something other than flip burgers.
I guess I would try to assist everyone that is very vulnerable, at least at my 23 years of age, I'd try to help everyone before they reach my age and feel like they've accomplished nothing in their lives.  From my experience, there are a lot of those days.  Lots of nights in which I ponder on how things could have been differently, how I could have used the kick in the butt from a school counselor, and how I feel like I should have known better.
For myself?  I guess I'd have a lobster dinner every now and then because I've never had lobster and it just seems like a delicious food.  I'd get myself a membership at my local yoga studio because I loved it when my friend gifted me a month's membership and loved the things they did for my life.
I don't feel like the things I've done in my past, but I do feel that the younger groups in these contests should get a chance to change their lives and the lives of others.  I don't come from money, and I honestly wouldn't know what to do with that much money.  I'd cover my expenses and my family's and splurge on my education at FIDM (haha), but other than that, I don't see the need to keep everything for myself.  Extra money should always be invested, not in a stock market, it should be invested in the youth of our nation.  And not just our nation at that, there's people everywhere, but more so than that, there's people in need everywhere!  I'm not out to be a saint, but it freaks me out so much that there's people out there in worst situations than myself, and no one can, will, or is able to help them out.  I feel that some days I loathe the life I was born into, and I feel proud that I'm slowly changing things for myself, but maybe it'll be the next generation, my kids, my niece, etc. that will be the first generation of college.  That's crazy to me.

I just realized that I did a whole rant on a contest that I know I have no shot of winning at.  Haha.  Embarrassing.  But yeah, wouldn't your mind float off into space if you saw an opportunity so close and just couldn't reach it?!!